Predator...........

So there is a monster inside of me. I've known of it for a while. Disapointment is the trigger that swings this beast out into the open. It lies somewhere between rage, and indifference. It surfaces covered in selfishness, and gradually takes control of my mind, my heart, and my sould.

I can't seem to figure out where this comes from. I mean, I've literally looked at myself in the mirror and said "I'm a monster" Its weird because God must really love us, to be able to put up with the horrible things we do out of our hearts; and its not just the "normal" people, but Christians too. I have a theory that christians are the worst out of the group. I say that because we know the truth and in spite of it, we will choose wrong. Atleast for the unknowing they have the slight defense of being ignorant.

Its like the monster inside of me lives for Chaos, and feeds off of anger and hurt. It hunts people and seeks out the destruction of others, driven by a rage and a revenge that "everyone will hurt like I do" I don't know what to do about this anymore, and even on good days, I'm always wondering in the back of my mind...."What if this gets out of the cage, and I can't put it back"


"Humans man,.....Humans"
-Dean Winchester-