The Lies They Tell the Children....What Else Can We Be Wrong About?

So we all know the gay ass story. You know the one I'm talking about. Your a little child, maybe somewhere around the age of 6ish or so, and you are looking up at your mommy and daddy and you smile at them as they feel so proud and happy for you. You see on this day, you have pretended to be an astronaut, I mean hell, you even went as far as to build your own damn spaceship out of a box, and as they look down at you, you glance back up at them and say "I'm going to be an astronaut when I grow up" To which your parents say......"You can be whatever you want when you grow up sweety" Lies...All Lies....

So has anyone ever noticed that we never really become the things that we want in life. I'm starting to discover this as I trek through my sorry little existance. I mean, I can't count the number of dreams and plans that I had mad that suddenly just decided to fall through on me. Its kind of crappy because, you reach so high and so hard that when you crash and fall, well you become something entirely different all together....which is a loser and a failure....But don't worry, you can become whatever you want when you grow up right?

I'm not sure why people even try anymore, I mean it is pointless we should know this by now. I've been trying so hard to change these past few months, and all I've gotten really is worse. Its that same old failed feeling. You know, the one where your staring up at the ceiling late at night in your bed praying to God and saying "How can I get any worse?" But you do get worse, and your sould breaks even more, and your pain does get worse. Maybe we are destined to just be losers, I mean, maybe if we all stopped dreaming and wanting things and learned how to settle, we'd all be happier people. I mean, I might as well embrace the dick head inside of my heart, because He is the only one who gets anything done. Who knows?